In the year 2001, I found myself spending many evenings after a day of work on a car lot in a local Denny's, doing a lot of writing, including over 400 pages (handwritten) of a novel that's even now trying to chug its way through a writer's block. Believe it or not, Denny's is a pretty good place to write in privacy, because even packed to the rafters, nobody is really there to bother you. And so, I'd get there by ten or ten-thirty, and would sometimes stay four or five hours, mostly writing, but also people-watching.
Of course, any cafe in the world has its regulars, and this particular Denny's was no different. During this time, I was one of the regulars, and the gentleman from this poem was also one of them. The poem that follows tells a true story of a true encounter, and was on paper not even a half-hour after he and I parted company.
Strictly speaking, this isn't a D/s-based poem, but for some reason it's been ringing through my head a lot lately, and what the hell, I was writing a BDSM novel when this gentleman sat at my table to talk. Aboard the Seaborne Wanderer will hopefully someday find its way through the writer's block that's kept it hung up for so long, and I'll be able to share it with you, but I digress. I can't say I hope you enjoy this poem, because it's not a terribly happy one, but I hope perhaps it gives you pause to think ...
--Patrick--
Nameless faces in a little cafe'
Bitter coffee to drink on a lonely day
Worn out jukebox playing worn out songs
People pondering their lives and what went wrong
One old gent's here whom I see quite often
Probably not yet fifty, but ready for his coffin
Coffee and cigarette, the man looks spent
Eyes already rheumy and his shoulders forever bent
While I sit and write, his eyes meet mine
Young and old and painful, it chills my spine
He comes to my table and takes a seat
Offers a gnarled hand as we somehow meet
Without a prompt, he starts to tell
Of his life that's become a living hell
Of a life still young yet already done
Of not wanting to see even one more sun
He's tired of life, tired of his fate
Tired of his wife and too tired to hate
It hurts to see anyone so full of sorrow
I wonder if he'll even be alive tomorrow
He lights another of probably one million smokes
I watch with interest as I drink at my Coke
Wondering at the stories this man could say
Of his happy life before too many yesterdays
We talk of life and death and the big bad world
Smiling gently at the waitress, a cute young girl
I wonder, seeing this man, how this girl's life will be
What joys and terrors will this young girl see?
Time for home and bed, and we shake hands and part
I go home with sad thoughts and a heavy heart
And to work tomorrow with fear and hope
That I'll not come so sadly to the end of my rope
--PTH--
--07 August 2001, A.D.--